I haven't talked to Dad since Father's Day. I don't know how I feel about it, so...how can I write about it?

I haven't been writing much here at all, lately. In my dayplanner, I have a section for daily notes, and I guess I've been using that as a diary, but...I mean, one of the things that shattered my heart after the fire was losing years worth of diaries, and here I am, in one of the most important times of my life, living in New York, and...I'm not documenting every day here, dissecting every move.

Instead of writing them down...I'm seeing them all. With my new eyes. I feel like I'm seeing the world for the first time.